I told myself I wouldnt.[I told myself I wouldn't write this.]I told myself over and over, screaming the words in my head so many times they blended with the fearsome roaring in my ears till it sounded like the battle cry of ten thousand warriors who have lost their families to the fire in my eyes. The words dripped from my eyes and wove themselves between my ribs, encasing my heart and holding it hostage until my hands dragged themselves to my bedroom, picked up a pen and freed the words tearing up my veins in shiny new sportscars, driving way too fast. They poured from my fingertips only used to show emotion in the form of music, never ever to touch him - not yo